Vol 5. The start of my journey and resettlement | 旅程的开始与重置

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Dec 27, 2022

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Recording my feelings after becoming a yoga teacher and expressing my gratitude to the world. | 记录成为瑜伽老师后的感想，向世界传达感激之情。

My first 10 yoga students | 最初的10位瑜伽学生

After becoming a yoga teacher, I gradually had 10 students. These included friends from my college, club, and online community. Everyone was young and had never tried yoga before. Every time I taught my friends yoga, I could recognize details that I couldn't see through daily communication. When completely surrendering to the asanas and breath, there is no room for words or any disguise to intervene. All genuine emotion is manifested by the body.

成为瑜伽教师后，我陆陆续续地拥有了10位学生；有大学的同学，社团的学姐，线上社群的朋友。大家都很年轻，基本上没有接触过瑜伽。在每一次教授朋友瑜伽时，我都能发觉朋友身上只通过平时交流无法察觉到的细节。因为，完全臣服于体式和呼吸之中时，没有语言和任何伪装介入的余地，一切最真实的情感都会被身体所表征。

Among them was a girl who was confident and had her own opinions. In the asana practice, I could sense her tension through her tight shoulders. So, I gently reminded her to lead her shoulders to the ground with her arms and help her stretch her muscles. In Shavasana, the final asana, her face showed a peaceful and tranquil expression that I had never seen before.

其中，一位日常生活中十分自信的，有自己主张的女孩。在体式的练习中，我能通过她紧张的肩部察觉到她无法完全放松的状态。于是，我会温柔地提醒她用手臂带领肩部向大地延伸，并辅助她舒展全身的肌肉。她在最后的Shavasana中露出了我从未看到的，安宁平和的表情。

The first time I taught 1 to 1 yoga online, I found that through the camera, I could observe the student's posture and breathing from a complete angle. Although I was unable to physically assist and support the student's movements, she was able to find the most suitable movements for herself through my instructions and suggestions. After a complete relaxation and meditation, she said: "Although I was skeptical about online yoga, during the practice, I no longer had to care about others anymore. I could close my eyes to completely immersed in your guidance. I had never felt such an intimate relationship with my body."

第一次线上一对一教瑜伽，我发现，透过镜头，我能以更完整的角度观察学生的体式和呼吸。尽管无法肢体接触的辅助和支持学生的动作，但是在些许犹豫和尝试后，她便能通过我的指示和建议摸索到最适合自己的动作。在完全的舒展和冥想练习后，她说：“虽然我对线上瑜伽曾抱有怀疑，但是练习中，我再也不用在意外界的视线和他者的压力，并闭眼享受老师的沉浸式指导；我从未感受到与身体如此亲密的关系。”

"Yoga is the practice of reconnecting the body and breath, and there is no standard or perfect posture; the posture that is most comfortable for oneself is the most suitable one." This is a principle that my yoga teacher especially emphasized. I still couldn't fully understand it before, but when the first time I taught yoga to several of my friends, I deeply felt that everyone's movements were so different and everyone is unique.

「瑜伽是重新连接身体和呼吸的练习，并没有标准和完美的体式；于自己最舒服的就是最合适的体式。」这是我的老师尤其强调的原则。自己一个人练习的时候还不能完全理解，但是，第一次教多人瑜伽，我深刻的体会到，每一个人的动作是如此的不同，每一个人个体是如此特别。

Video preview — Recording of my Hatha yoga class on Dec 24th, 2022.

Recognizing myself from different angles | 从不同视角认识自己

Students' feedback provide great opportunity to understand myself from different perspectives. After each yoga class, I would always ask my friends if there was anything I could improve on. Every time, they were happy to answer and encourage me. To my surprise, besides the yoga class itself, my friends love my empathy, smiling and healing voice. I am glad that I can provide the energy of bonding between people that cannot be obtained by just following yoga videos on Youtube.

学生的反馈是从不同的角度认识自己非常好的机会。每次瑜伽课后，我都会去问朋友有没有可以改进的地方。她们都会很乐于回答并鼓励我。我惊喜的发现，除了瑜伽课本身以外，自己的亲和力，包容力和治愈舒缓的声音是朋友们喜欢与我练习的时间的原因。我也很高兴自己能为他人提供只看油管视频跟练无法获得的，人与人链接的能量。

At the same time, taking yoga teaching as part of life also constantly reminds me to balance my life and focus on the present. My teacher always told us that, no matter what healing profession you do, from therapist to life coach and beyond, you need to keep your own center if you have the intention to help others in their journey. This is yoga. Practice and find the light and love from your inner heart, and then share it freely. Yoga is really the embodiment of our own selves.

同时，将教授瑜伽作为生活的一部分，也时时刻刻提醒我平衡生活，着重当下。我的老师经常告诉我们，无论你从事什么治愈他人的职业，从心理咨询师到人生教练等等，只要你有意愿帮助他人走上人生旅程，你就需要保持自己内心的安定。这就是瑜伽。练习，从你内心深处找到光明和爱，然后自由地分享给他人。瑜伽是我们自身的表征。

Gratitude to Continuous Flow of Life | 感激流淌的生命之河

This year has been a tumultuous one, with both the social environment and myself constantly changing.

今年是动荡的一年，社会的环境与我自身都在不停的变化。

I encountered yoga and found the possibility of healing my general anxiety and sleep disorder, but I still sometimes return to my unhealthy state of mind. Enjoying solitude and self-exploration, while meditating, I still can't help but be curious and enthusiastically explore and learn new things (p.s. I'm recently obsessed with urban planning and community design). Internalizing and returning to the center of the inner heart is a long-term and continuous practice, and in the new year, I will also explore my inner heart with the same awareness, but with a more natural and relaxing attitude.

我与瑜伽相遇，找到了治愈广泛性焦虑症和睡眠障碍的可能性，但是时不时还是会回到原来的不健康的心态。享受独处与自我探寻，冥想的同时，我还是抑制不住好奇心，每天都热情地探究和学习各种新鲜事物（p.s. 最近我沉迷于城镇规划和社区设计）。摸索与回归内心的平衡是持久不断的课题，新的一年，我也会带着同样的问题意识，但是更加自然与放松的心态探寻内心。

I'm sure I'll continue to teach yoga in my spare time. What I enjoy most now is the moment after meditation, when my friends and I slowly open our eyes, look into each other's eyes, and smile with our hands clasped together. That moment of resonance between our hearts is indescribable.

我也肯定会继续在课余时间教授瑜伽。现在我最享受的时光，就是冥想结束后，朋友与我慢慢睁眼，四目对视，微笑双手合十的时刻。那个瞬间我们心灵的共鸣，一切言语都不足为道。

In the urban life that is bound by hectic social events, the time to open one's heart to the other is hard to obtain thus so precious. I am grateful to all my friends who are willing to join my yoga class, and I appreciate their trust and acceptance; my students appearing on the yoga mat is the greatest encouragement for me.

在被社交需要所裹挟的都市生活中，能安心地将心灵完全向对方敞开的时间是如此珍贵和来之不易。我感激所有愿意同我一起做瑜伽的的朋友，感激他们的信任和接纳；学生们能出现在瑜伽垫上已是对我最大的鼓励。

Thank you for all the encounters and bonds we have made this year. May all beings be happy and free.

感谢今年的所有相遇与羁绊，愿所有生命幸福与自由。

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